I don’t know what it was about my childhood that influenced me to swim against the current. Even before Christ burst into my life, I knew deep down in my heart there was a larger plan. I grew up in a very rough neighborhood where everyday I had to defend myself either verbally or physically. I lived in a house that was loud and violent. It was my mother, my father, and my 4 older brothers that made my house a riot. I have great childhood memories, and I have bad ones that marked my life resulting into some bad decisions. As crazy as it may sound, I would not have traded shoes with anyone else in the world, but I can’t help but ask is this what God intended to happen in my life?
My father left when I was about 12 and then moved to Puerto Rico when I was 15. After he had left he took a bit of my soul with him. I rarely saw him and he rarely kept in contact with me. Those days were very dark days in my life, as well as pivotal crossroads. My mother was left to raise 5 kids and she slaved away to make ends meet. I remember when we didn’t have enough money for food, so my mother would always come up with some clever way to prepare dinner that kept us from starving. There were times when the heat bill wasn’t paid on time in the middle of winter resulting it to be cut off, and yet I can’t remember a single moment where we lacked warmth.
God has a funny way of showing his grace and master plan. The rollercoaster’s that I’ve endured doesn’t come from a lack of food or deficient heat, but instead it comes from a deeper soul searching place. This much is true, I may not have come from a perfect family but I am grateful for them. Though in many ways it was dysfunctional, it is part of my past and is some ways part of who I am today.
I have taken those successful moments and failed moments of my past and allowed it to shape my character. I was taught at a very young age to remember who I am and where I came from; otherwise, I won’t know where I am going. Everything that I have gone through, the good, the bad and the ugly, has shaped and molded my character to be a strong and courageous woman. I can look back now and have no regrets because every situation that I have endured has only contributed to the way of think, and into a person of great stature.
Someone once said, “Attitude is the way you mentally look at the world around you. It is how you view your environment and your future. It is the focus you develop toward life itself.” There’s one thing that I have learned through out the years and that is change comes from the inside out. My attitude towards life is more vibrant and lucid than ever before, all because I am accessible to change. My husband and children add to that fuel that ignites this passion within me. It is because of them that I feel I can accomplish anything and everything I put my mind to. Despite of where I came from, I know where I want to go as an artist and as a designer. My personality and character is reflected in the art I create, and I can’t help but express my history through it as well. Until Next Time…
La Unica Reina