“I know the plans that I have for you,” says the lord, “Plans to prospers you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
It is amazing to see how faith works! When everything in our lives is as what you want it to be, give or take your finances, relationships…etc, then it really isn’t true faith. It is only when our lives are literally falling apart at the very core that is when we have the chance to make our faith real.
When I stepped into my doctors office this past Tuesday I was optimistic. I knew in my heart whatever news she would deliver, whether good or bad, I would be taken care of. Jesse, I believe, was more nervous than I was. The doc walks into the waiting room where I was at and she comes right out by saying, “Well Mrs. Santoyo, your ultrasounds came back and everything looks normal. There isn’t anything that can indicate any disease or malfunction towards your liver. In fact, all your organs look great and completely healthy.” (Mind you this is the 2nd ultrasound that I had to take, the first showed obscurity) As my doctor was saying this her face looked confused and bewildered and she insisted that I draw a 3rd set of blood so that it can be evaluated yet again.
The lab results would come the next day, and my doctor said she would contact me with the final results. She goes on by saying if it is not my liver than it could be my bones, and a bone scan may be the next step to find out what may be causing my alkaline levels to rise. I smiled and said, “ok.” 2 weeks prior I would have lost my mind! I would have gone into a deep depression and probably would have cried myself to sleep, if my mind would not deprive me of it. This time it was different, I had peace, I was secure, and I had faith. Faith was the only thing of value that my heart and mind had.
Wednesday came and I went about my day as usual, I made coffee, fixed breakfast, got the kids ready for school. I was completely unmindful that my doctor would contact me with the results; so when the phone rang, I didn’t think much of it. Low and behold it was Dr. Logan on the other end, and I was calm and ready. She begins to speak, “Mrs. Santoyo, how are you today? Your results came back and thought you should know that your alkaline phosphatase is normal now! Your levels are at 143 units/L!…” I smiled and said, “Really! That is good news, that is really good news…”
It would be ideal to say that I became really exited after hearing the good news, but I wasn’t. I was at peace and I was passive. The moment that I decided to give my life up to God and trust in Him I became excited. This good news was just an icing on the cake. I knew deep within my core existence that He had a plan. A crazy plan might I add, but nonetheless it was a well thought out sketch of my life. Only He knows what my heart and mind feel, think, and struggle with. He knew what he needed to do to bring me back to my roots. The true essence of why I worship God. “No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace…” Hebrews 12:11
I have gone through of chain of disappointments and let downs in the pass several years. As each day pass my heart began to fill with fear, animosity, jealousy, and regret, all the ingredients for a lonely and desperate life. It takes the sense of losing your life to realize what really is important. Thank you to everyone who kept me and my family in prayer. Whether you may believe or not there is power in prayer. A special shout out to David Maldonado, Travis & Kelly Johnson, and Michelle Bulger. You have inspired me and allowed me to see once again what true friendship and community is all about.
So I leave you with this, love out loud, laugh even when it hurts, hope for the best in every situation, dream the unthinkable, and Live like you’re dying…cause every second counts.
Until next time my dear friends
La Unica Reina